I feel like my life is finally starting to fall into place and that what I've been searching for is soon going to reveal itself to me. It is concerning that I have been working towards something I don't fully know yet, but my path has always been one of a blind struggle. But with the help of my loved one, I can unabashedly say that my vision for my future is becoming clearer with time. And I couldn't be happier and without too much worry.
The last month has been a major shift in my daily routine. I have moved into my boyfriend's family's home; my sister has sold the shop meaning I no longer work for her; I have finished my exams for the year; and I am as happy as ever. With the help of Tina who I am forever grateful for, I strengthened my will to be hard headed and decide to leave home. Living with my sister has always been toxic and stressful, and time apart has given me room to finally breathe. My new family home has been as welcoming as it can be, in the sense that my boyfriend's family isn't as close as the cousins I'm used to. But mom and his sister is lovely, and the rest of the family is pleasant enough so I'm happy with that. I do miss my daily talks with my younger sister, but I know we'll make time to see each other.
Work is now a new environment as with the takeover of new management, much needed changes were made to the store. We have a better presentation of the shop and the cleaning routine is one to my standards. However, with the new owners being a family friend, I do feel a little taken advantage of. My position right now is mixed; I can't tell whether I'm a regular employee or the manager. I have no qualms with helping the new owners settle in, in fact I like it. I know the shop the best, I know what's needed and what's where. I don't however like that they've thrown themselves into this owning position without first researching what the shop was about, what it needed, and most importantly, the clientele. Our customers are our income, and the employment of inexperienced workers is extremely troublesome as our clientele base is our regulars. They have become dependant on me to solve everything for them. It's a struggle. I want to help them but we've been so busy at work, and me being non stop I do not have the time to walk them through on how to maximise profit while keeping a happy and loyal client base. With that said, the shop is currently in chaos, and a meeting needs to be held ASAP. If not, I feel like the shop will go under real quick, especially if I decide to leave due to stress.
Onto happier things. I feel like I should have made a separate post to talk of my appreciation, admiration and love for my boyfriend but that would be cheesy af and also gross and lame lol so I won't. But I need to write it somewhere because my feelings are bursting at the seams and while I have no grievances about giving all my love to him, if I can't express it elsewhere I feel like I will smother him. Bao has been a godsend. He has been the light of my life since the beginning of this year, and probably even from before when we were just friends. He has shown me a new life with new adventures. He has given me all these emotions I thought I had forgotten. He has given me a hand to hold and to share experiences with. Who would have thought that my person who was in synchrony with me was around me all along. I love him so much it makes me cry. I can't see myself with anyone else, nor would I want to. Bao is my lifelong partner, for this life and the next. I love him so much. Bao, I love you.
