I can't be bothered to try anymore. I'm just tired. Tired of waking up and going to sleep. Tired of eating and showering and listening and breathing. I just want everything to stop. I can't breathe anymore. There is no space for me in the world who cares for nothing more than the superficial. I don't want to be around people who remain unchanging and ignorant and unobservant.
I am sick of my mom going out every night, sick of hearing my brother talk about selling our house. I am sick of how this family is being run, I am sick of hearing about post HSC life. Sick of being told what to do, when to do it, how to do it, without the why.
I'm just sick and tired. I've given up.
