Well, that's what we all say.
It's crazy, isn't it, how we've reached 2013 already? Last time I really checked, it was still '08. We've survived through change in peer groups, economic downfalls, political arguments, law changes, war threats, and 2012. We've gone from children who had no sense to teenagers who still have no sense. It's been crazy for everyone.
I'm not ready. Time, merciless as it is, has not given me enough of itself to help me catch up to the rest of the world. My interests never grew until year 9, which is quite worrying for me. I've had 3 years to explore my interests, hobbies, likes and dislikes, and yet I am still stuck with the few I grew up with. I have no courage, no confidence, no creditable attributes which make me unique.
I'm not ready for school. I'm not ready for the work load, the expectations, the responsibilities or the big decisions I will have to make that will affect my future. I'm not ready to form new relationships and make up with old ones. I'm not ready to open up my small circle to people who could just be there. I'm not.
I'm not ready to lose people I love, forgive those I hate, or mend my mistakes. All in all, I'm not ready to grow up.
I think, for people to grow up, we need to accept change. It is clear already that I am not one for change. I'm still scared to dance in front of people, yet it is one of the things I like to do most. I cannot voice my true feelings to my family because of the hierarchy evident in the family and my respect for it. To be a member of society we need to accept change, because nothing will ever stay the same. To be a member of society I need to accept change, because if I don't, where will I be when everyone is ahead?
Just here.
